Disappointed

I thought I had found the perfect solution to my daycare dilemma. A member of Fertility Friend had mentioned that she had the same concerns...and it ended up that her husband stayed home with their child. She was comforted by the thought that their child was with the only other person who cared as much as she did. Sounds like a great idea, right? After all...Brian had joked for years about how, when we finally had kids, he wanted to stay home with them and I would work. I don't know why I didn't think of it before! However, sharing my plan didn't go as well as anticipated. I believe the response I received was, "you expect me to give up my career to stay home with her?" with a look of incredulity on his face. That was the end of the discussion in my eyes. If he even had to think about it, it wasn't meant to be. I'd prefer she go to daycare (even with the concerns about the divided attention she will receive, as well as her spending 95% of her waking moments with people other than me) than stay home with a father who may grow to resent her for keeping him from doing what he really wants to do. Brian got angry that I ended the discussion right away. I was upset that he didn't jump at the opportunity. I guess I can't understand why he wouldn't. He can't understand why I want to make things more difficult financially. Forget the fact that daycare went up another $9 before she even started... So now I have to bust my butt to pay someone else $219/week to spend all the wonderful waking moments with my daughter, while I get to spend 2-3 hours of her waking time a day with her. That's it. How is that right?

I'm not too happy right now....